EMO-ing
Date: Thursday, March 5, 2009
Well, I guess its not anything new. This is me emoing again. I am feeling very down now. Today at school not only have da3 ji1 from results, I found out that everyone is against me. I emo-ed while walking on the track today. People keep putting me down. I may be always doing work, but that is bcos I dun wan do work when I get home. I may look like a nerd but thats how I am. I may always score badly in everything I do, but I can't help it.
Sometimes despite putting in effort, results were not meant to be. My china studies is as bad as failing. I dun wan to think about it. ):
Quote that fits my thinking now:
“The world itself is pregnant with failure, is the perfect manifestation of imperfection, of the consciousness of failure.”
The world is a horrible place to be in. That day when we were doing PDP, I drew a sine graph and used Mr Ang's quote on life is a sine curve. Then I realised that life is not really a sine curve, as there are no "up" points or "maximum" points in my life. I find it a point of inflexion instead. It just keeps going downhill when we are borned. When we are first born, it was probably the best time of our life. As people say, ignorance is bliss, when we were babies, we dunno what a horrible place this world is, where qualifications means everything, when people backstab each other where all sorts of scary things happen. So I guess my life is like a point of inflexion with the last part being a sharp turn up as when our life draws to a close, it should be better when we get to heaven if we ever get there.
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Signing Off~