SAD..
Date: Tuesday, May 19, 2009
I am disappointed in myself.
My moys are a mess. My LA is almost as bad as flunking. I feel so sad. LA is all about the teacher liking your writing style, and apparently mine was not well received by the teacher. I find it pointless actually. LA is like so unpredictable, what's the point of doing a subject that has no point and actually is very subjective? I screwed up LA big time. Just as I was starting to enjoy LA, this horrid results crash me down badly again.
Maths everyone also did very well. So well, A1 is not considered good afterall. It is just no use. If everyone can get A1, it is no longer precious. Like what Mrs Lee was stressing for 30 mins during physics class today. She was saying that if things are easy to get, they are no longer precious. Well, thats the case for maths. I think that when things are too easy, we no longer treasure them as much. For physics, well, it was another long day reviewing mistakes which are all crossed in red marker crosses and filled with words indicating wrong concepts. I wonder about my physics... What exactly is my standard now? If it gets well then drops for the next test? Like my static test that failed. I am starting to lose confidence in everything that I have been doing.
For chem, everyone got like A1, while I did not. I feel so zi4 bei1. Is like I am always behind and lacking something.
CSC and SCS and HCL. These are the papers not back yet. I have a bad feeling for CSC and SCS esp, bcos Mr Tan went through the ans, and I wrote out of point. ): I intepreted the sources wrongly too. In that case, I would probably fail, and there goes my 80% SCS. )): For CSC, today during CID, he told some pro people from my class they did not do very well. Which indicates, I am dead, as I hve always been just passing. If even those pro people cannot do well, where does that leave me? HCL is crappy, I wrote the compo all wrongly, and my main paper, when she went through that day, it was full of mistakes. ): I think I am depressed. I am ranting like some depress maniac.
I know results are not everything. But well... Wonder what put me in this depressed mood? Perhaps is the talk we had during CCA today. My CCA mates and me were slackin away, and we chatted and the more I thought of my whole school life and everything, the more depressed I am. Oh well...
Since no one ever visits this dead blog, I guess whatever I am saying will not be seen by anyone, so I would not affect anyone with this depressed post. ):
Signing Off~